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September 29

&&did you know?</3

hello there, mr. cobain.
he's standing at the door.
he's smiling up at me and i'm staring down in awe.
and every step he took towards me
just screamed "you're everything to me."
did you know that i miss you?
did you know that i miss you when you're gone, mr. cobian?

hello there, mr. cobain
and oh, doesn't he look good there?
doesn't he look good there, standing in my nightmare?
and every word he didn't say
he'll come back and say again, someday.
did you know that i breathe you?
did you know that i breathe you in from all around, mr. cobain?

hello there, mr. cobain
you've not been around for days.
I hope you come back soon. I hope you haven't gone away.
i'm watching the rain falling
you obviously didn't hear me calling.
did you know that i need you?
did you know that i need you & i'm lost, mr. cobain?

hello there, mr. cobain
you've been gone three months it seems.
i'm lookin' down the stairway, i'm lookin' in my dreams.
but you're nowhere & you're not at home.
you're not with them but you're not alone.
did you know that i love you?
did you know that i love you?
did you know that i love you?
I love you.
Mr. Cobain.

 
June 29

&&colourme[blue];;i'mlostinyou__x

Mood:
Choon: "They Weren't There" - Missy Higgins
 
You Sighed, And I Was Lost In You. Weeks Could Have Passed For All I Knew.
 
 
this is something I haven't done in god knows how long.
Well... It was sports day today, and, as usual, we were amazing spectators that sat on the grass by the side of the track and watched the boys play on their DS's, did eachothers hair, gave eachother backrubs and generally had a huge orgy. In broad daylight and full view of about 15 teachers. perverts.
I think my dear Todd was the entertainer of the day. Was very nicely squished up against him on the bus ride there, as we all belted out a eurovision-worthy version of the wheels on the bus (which me & liz later changed to "The people on the bus say I'm hungry, take me home, this is gay.. etc etc) then, when getting off the bus at slower than snails pace, todd shouts "i know how to get people moving - I'M GONNA BE SICK!" and yeah we were off in 5 seconds. some other funny moments include
"WHERE'S MY BAG" &
"HAIR IN MY BUBBLEGUM".
i guess you have to be there to fully appreciate how funny it is to listen to todd shouting. basically one minute he can sound like a butch builder, the next, like a 3 year old girl.
it was hot & stuffy & i was surrounded by couples.
oh, and i lost my mp3 player.
good day?
you tell me.
 
 
March 24

I Can Still Remember. <//3


 

I saw this boy today who had floppy hair like yours
& I started remembering how yours felt on my fingertips
& those arms at his sides could have been the ones
Who held me tight through the many nights I was too tired to even cry.
& That walk, it used to make me shiver
& That electrcity i used to feel swept down my spine again
& Those hands I know I've felt in my hair
The taste of cigarette smoke from your mouth soaks mine again.

 

I saw this boy today who had your eyes burnt into his face
'Cos only you were amazing enough to have embers burning in blue.
& The way he never smiled, just smirked as he walked on
I knew he must have somehow known your ways, almost studied you, like I used to.
& Those same old battered converses
The laces you always let trail on the floor.
& The lip piercing I ran my tongue over more than a million times.
The bitter stench of regret coming from your french colonge.

 

I saw this boy today who's fingers itched to strum
On the shiny blue guitar lying in the corner of your bedroom.
& I'm just the shadow of a girl who lay on your bed
& Requested all of my favourite songs; & you played me every one.
That same old laugh that you reserved for only those you loved.
The one that made everything in the world seem beautiful.
& I know I must have seen you again in that moment.
Because there's only one angel in my world, & that moment was heavenly.

 
 
February 20

pleasedon'tbreak__x

 
 
Cereline__x
the road of life is dark without you, & i, i just can't see.
 
 
Catalyst__x
you exist to pull me down.
 
 
Adrienne__x
i thought i knew you.
 
 
Julie__x
i'd never make it through without you around.
 
 
Straight Up__x
what did you hope to learn about here?
 
 
 
 
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TheyAskedMe[Why]IBelieveInYou.<3x
 
 
   x_They Told Me Once, Sometimes_x
x_The Pain Of Losing Someone Gets So Bad_x
x_We Even Start To Wish The One We'd Loved_x
x_Had Never Existed_x
x_But If You Had Never Existed;_x
x_Neither Would I_x
 
How Dare You Not Remember
&& How Dare You Walk Away.
 
 
Your[Beauty]Blinds.
 
I Hate The Way You Say My Name
;; Like It's Something Secret.
 
 
I'm Not Going To Doubt
You Must Have Loved Me Once.
Because You Told Me So
& You Never Were A Lyer,
Even If You Were A Cheat.
& The Truth Is, Well
I'm Still Watching The Street Corner
& Listening For My Phone
Even Though You've Forgotten Where I Live
& I Havn't Been On Your Speed Dail For A Long Time 
 
 
 
"I'd had my moment. I'd had my kiss; That was as good as it was ever going to get. Trouble is when you have a feeling that good you want the world to know. You want it to go on forever & the last thing you want to do is just give it up. So I wanted him to know. He had to know. It was time to end the lies." </3
 
 
IsMy[Heart]TooBroken?.</3x
 
 
 
 
February 15

CrazyForYou[<3]

Mood
Choon "The Difference" - Matchbox 20.
 
Slow Dancing On The Boulevard, In The Quiet Moments While The City's Still Dark..
 
 
I've had such a great day, it was totally worthy of blog space. & I mean, be honoured Liz, not much is worthy of my precious blog.
So lyke, I set my alarm for 9am, thinking okay, I'll get up, and be nice and fresh to go out at h"alf 10! But then my alarm went off in the middle of a rather nice dream of which details are being withheld, and I turned the little bugger off and woke up again at, you guessed it, half 10, only to throw on some clothes, grab Clarence & run up the road to meet Teh Liz at Sedgley bus stop. Then, while on the bus, we got yelled at by some drunk chavs. Fun start to the day!
So lyke, now we're in town and we pay our anual three visits to Rowfers before we actually buy anything, we walk across the (deserted) Civic and went and had a bit of n0rtyness down with a load of office workers having a fag break. Although it took us about 10 minutes to manage to, Ahem, "Do" our but of n0rtyness, but hell, it was worth it. (And stop being a pervert, pervert. I know what I'm talking about.)
Then we goes to Subway, and they HAD SOME BREAD. (Halle-fucking-luyah) and we ate. Then we went back to Civic. Then we got bored, so we thought, let us go and get a feast of Thorntons and Dohnuts! & On the way to Thorntons we got harrassed by some Hobo, who said to us: "Put your faith in Jesus! Don't put your faith in Tim Henman!" then chasing us down the street as we tried to make a quick getaway. Then we decided that Thorntons was too expensive (Or that we were too tight) so we went & got 4 quids worth of pick & mix from Woolies. (Probobly actually should have been about 6 quid, judging by the amount we actually ate before we paid for it =P)
We also saw a lot of someone's family around town. xD
 
SPANKS PIXEH <3 I just have one thing left to say - WHAT'S THIS THAT I SPY? OH MY, IT'S MARS DELIGHT!
 
 
Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
.x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
 
You're Still On My Speed Dail,
But There's Nothing Left To Say.
Except If I Cried For You
& Wished That You'd Never Gone Away.
February 07

foraveryspeciallady__x

 
 
 
Heyjulie__x
 
look what they're doing to me
 
trying to trip me up, trying to wear me down
 
julie, i swear, it's so hard to to bare
 
& i'd never make it through without you around.
 
<3
 
 
 
January 22

*UnforgivableSinner*</3

Mood:
Choon: "Another Day" - Lene Marlin
 
Lie To Me ; Say That You Need Me </3
   
 Aww, Mumsie dearest has just bought me a lovely Tuna Mayonnaise sandwhich. How lovleh. I love standing in the kitchen while Mum makes everybody's sandwhiches, because every time we make Tuna ones, our cat just randomly appears from nowhere.. I think the record from the piercing of the tuna can to the appearence of Tazzy is about 6 seconds, where we saw her come tearing across the garden through the middle of some very confused chickens and come smacking straight into the french windows.
   Anyway, other than my partially severed neck, I've had a wonderous and fantabulous weekend =D Friday night, my fellow mini moshers and I reigned terror over Generation (Well, we stared at/spilt water on plenty of people, anyway) And we went, Mosh Mosh Mosh, while screaming at eachother, things like; "Forever, Forever! Let's Make This Last Forever!" "To Never Fall In Love Agaaain.." "SUGAR WE'RE GOIN' DOWN, SWINGIN'!" etc etc. Had an amazing time babes, roll on February 17th!
   & Last night, we all stopped at Simran's, and, just to prove I'm not lying, I have pictures! They're like, that way somewhere! << We had lots of fun, but I vow to anyone who hasn't watched it, do NOT watch Edward Scissor Hands.. It is heartbreakingly traumatizing ='( But we got to eat cake and we had a lovely girly time. Only problem is now I've shouted at so many people because I fell asleep on the cold, hard floor at 7am and woke up at 9 with Beth kneeling on me... But still, Phun Phun Phun!
   So now Imma just sit on MSN for the rest of the day, marvelling in tuna sandwhiches and getting depressed over random things like missing Geno & fag cravings. (But we DON'T get them, do we, Pix?)
 
I just have one more thing to say, y'all -- "GARDIANS UNITE!"  "..Pardon?"
 
 
Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
.x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
 
♥ You Were There For Summer Dreamin'
& You Are A Friend Indeed.
& I Hope You Find Your Freedom
Eventually. ♥
January 04

x[[I'm]]Someone[[Else]]x

Mood:
Choon: "Bright Lights" - Matchbox 20
 
She Got Outta Town, On A Railway, New York Bound.. Took All Except My Name.
 
 
  Well, hey there. Not done one of my little blogs for a while, so I thought I'd come back and watch you all weep with wonder and admiration while I tell you about my sucky Christmas... What was that? You don't care about my sucky Christmas?... Well sit down, shutup & listen, 'cos I'm gonna tell you anyway.
  Uh, well, Xmas day, was woken at 1pm by an over-excited Mother. Considering she's spent about two months moaning about how much she hates Christmas, she was pretty hyper active as I unwrapped many a pair of socks. Knew instantly she'd been on the coffee. Made mental note to hide expresso machine, as is dangerous. Theeen Grandmother dearest comes around and Sister dearest drops oxygen tank onto my foot as we lug it up the stairs. Then get yelled at for going on MSN because it's "Anti-Social". Then scoff dinner and have to wait three hours for pudding because Grandmother spends an age piling things perfectly onto her folk and then, as soon as she lifts it to her mouth she either starts a new interesting conversation about Pat's new cream cardie, or else it all falls off and she has to start again. Either way, had to take several deep breaths and remind myself not to shout at old people.
   Theeeen, Boxing Day, (Or Xmas at Daddykins's) && RICHARD CAME OVER!!! Was sooo happy! Well, would have been more happy if I hadn't decided I was going to put on my new fluffy pair of pink pyjama's, but can't have everything in life.
   Theeeen, on News Years Eve, Jules bought Angie & Carolynne round! Seems family fudes all over now! Had fabmoolas evening watching Ang get slowly redder in the face every time Dad re-filled her glass, and gladly joined in when she started drowing out James Blunt on the TV with renditions of "YOU'RE BEE-OOT-EE-FU-HULL!"
   
I love you lot. You're all mental.
 
 
Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
.x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
 
 
♥ The Ocean Wrapped Around The Sun
The Smell Of June, The Taste Of Your Tongue;
Was All I'll Ever Need. ♥
December 25

Fairytale Of New York;<3

 
 
 
I Could Have Been Someone
Well So Could Anyone
You Took My Dreams From Me
When I First Found You.

I Kept Them With Me, Babe.
I Put Them With My Own
Can't Make It All Alone
I Built My Dreams Around You.

 
 
Merry Christmas Everyone
December 22

;You.

Baby;INeedYou.<3
 
x . { . You're So Beautiful ; You're So Untouchable . } . x

x . { . & If You Make It Up ; I Could Never Get Enough ; You & Me Together . } . x

x . { . Is It Red , Is It Green? Am I Stuck Inbetween? . } . x

x . { . You Are The Hope I Have For Change ; You Are The Only Chance I'll Take . } . x

x . { . Hang & Swap Clichés All Night . } . x

x . { . Overcome Thinkin' About ; Makin' Love In The Green Grass Behind The Stadium With You . } . x

x . { . Hello ; Do You Notice Me? Do You See That I'm Crumblin' Down? . } . x

x . { . I Don't Know How Many Times We've Walked The Streets
         Talking For Ages, 'Bout The People We're Gonna Be . } . x

x . { . I Want You To Love Me ; I Want You To Know I'm Just Like You . } . x

x . { . Sky Fell Down & Pulled Us In ; Stole Away My Oxygen
          & Left Me Standing Breathless There With You . } . x

x . { . It's So Wrong Not To Be With You ; It's Getting Harder To Stay Away . } . x

x . { . You Got Me Falling ; Noticing Those Little Things You Do . } . x

x . { . I'm Starting To Fashion An Idea Inside My Head
         Where I Would Impress You With Every Word I Said . } . x

x . { . I Never Knew Boys Could Be Beautiful ; But You . } . x

x . { . Sometimes I Catch Myself Staring Into Space
         Counting Down The Hours 'Til I Get To See Your Face . } . x

x . { . & Maybe, You're Gonna Be The One That Saves Me . } . x

x . { . We Were Young, We Were Wrong ; We Were Fine All Along . } . x
 

Can'tTakeMyEyesOffYou.<3