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    September 29

    &&did you know?</3

    hello there, mr. cobain.
    he's standing at the door.
    he's smiling up at me and i'm staring down in awe.
    and every step he took towards me
    just screamed "you're everything to me."
    did you know that i miss you?
    did you know that i miss you when you're gone, mr. cobian?

    hello there, mr. cobain
    and oh, doesn't he look good there?
    doesn't he look good there, standing in my nightmare?
    and every word he didn't say
    he'll come back and say again, someday.
    did you know that i breathe you?
    did you know that i breathe you in from all around, mr. cobain?

    hello there, mr. cobain
    you've not been around for days.
    I hope you come back soon. I hope you haven't gone away.
    i'm watching the rain falling
    you obviously didn't hear me calling.
    did you know that i need you?
    did you know that i need you & i'm lost, mr. cobain?

    hello there, mr. cobain
    you've been gone three months it seems.
    i'm lookin' down the stairway, i'm lookin' in my dreams.
    but you're nowhere & you're not at home.
    you're not with them but you're not alone.
    did you know that i love you?
    did you know that i love you?
    did you know that i love you?
    I love you.
    Mr. Cobain.

     
    June 29

    &&colourme[blue];;i'mlostinyou__x

    Mood:
    Choon: "They Weren't There" - Missy Higgins
     
    You Sighed, And I Was Lost In You. Weeks Could Have Passed For All I Knew.
     
     
    this is something I haven't done in god knows how long.
    Well... It was sports day today, and, as usual, we were amazing spectators that sat on the grass by the side of the track and watched the boys play on their DS's, did eachothers hair, gave eachother backrubs and generally had a huge orgy. In broad daylight and full view of about 15 teachers. perverts.
    I think my dear Todd was the entertainer of the day. Was very nicely squished up against him on the bus ride there, as we all belted out a eurovision-worthy version of the wheels on the bus (which me & liz later changed to "The people on the bus say I'm hungry, take me home, this is gay.. etc etc) then, when getting off the bus at slower than snails pace, todd shouts "i know how to get people moving - I'M GONNA BE SICK!" and yeah we were off in 5 seconds. some other funny moments include
    "WHERE'S MY BAG" &
    "HAIR IN MY BUBBLEGUM".
    i guess you have to be there to fully appreciate how funny it is to listen to todd shouting. basically one minute he can sound like a butch builder, the next, like a 3 year old girl.
    it was hot & stuffy & i was surrounded by couples.
    oh, and i lost my mp3 player.
    good day?
    you tell me.
     
     
    March 24

    I Can Still Remember. <//3


     

    I saw this boy today who had floppy hair like yours
    & I started remembering how yours felt on my fingertips
    & those arms at his sides could have been the ones
    Who held me tight through the many nights I was too tired to even cry.
    & That walk, it used to make me shiver
    & That electrcity i used to feel swept down my spine again
    & Those hands I know I've felt in my hair
    The taste of cigarette smoke from your mouth soaks mine again.

     

    I saw this boy today who had your eyes burnt into his face
    'Cos only you were amazing enough to have embers burning in blue.
    & The way he never smiled, just smirked as he walked on
    I knew he must have somehow known your ways, almost studied you, like I used to.
    & Those same old battered converses
    The laces you always let trail on the floor.
    & The lip piercing I ran my tongue over more than a million times.
    The bitter stench of regret coming from your french colonge.

     

    I saw this boy today who's fingers itched to strum
    On the shiny blue guitar lying in the corner of your bedroom.
    & I'm just the shadow of a girl who lay on your bed
    & Requested all of my favourite songs; & you played me every one.
    That same old laugh that you reserved for only those you loved.
    The one that made everything in the world seem beautiful.
    & I know I must have seen you again in that moment.
    Because there's only one angel in my world, & that moment was heavenly.

     
     
    February 20

    pleasedon'tbreak__x

     
     
    Cereline__x
    the road of life is dark without you, & i, i just can't see.
     
     
    Catalyst__x
    you exist to pull me down.
     
     
    Adrienne__x
    i thought i knew you.
     
     
    Julie__x
    i'd never make it through without you around.
     
     
    Straight Up__x
    what did you hope to learn about here?
     
     
     
     
    ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
     
     
     
     
    TheyAskedMe[Why]IBelieveInYou.<3x
     
     
       x_They Told Me Once, Sometimes_x
    x_The Pain Of Losing Someone Gets So Bad_x
    x_We Even Start To Wish The One We'd Loved_x
    x_Had Never Existed_x
    x_But If You Had Never Existed;_x
    x_Neither Would I_x
     
    How Dare You Not Remember
    && How Dare You Walk Away.
     
     
    Your[Beauty]Blinds.
     
    I Hate The Way You Say My Name
    ;; Like It's Something Secret.
     
     
    I'm Not Going To Doubt
    You Must Have Loved Me Once.
    Because You Told Me So
    & You Never Were A Lyer,
    Even If You Were A Cheat.
    & The Truth Is, Well
    I'm Still Watching The Street Corner
    & Listening For My Phone
    Even Though You've Forgotten Where I Live
    & I Havn't Been On Your Speed Dail For A Long Time 
     
     
     
    "I'd had my moment. I'd had my kiss; That was as good as it was ever going to get. Trouble is when you have a feeling that good you want the world to know. You want it to go on forever & the last thing you want to do is just give it up. So I wanted him to know. He had to know. It was time to end the lies." </3
     
     
    IsMy[Heart]TooBroken?.</3x
     
     
     
     
    February 15

    CrazyForYou[<3]

    Mood
    Choon "The Difference" - Matchbox 20.
     
    Slow Dancing On The Boulevard, In The Quiet Moments While The City's Still Dark..
     
     
    I've had such a great day, it was totally worthy of blog space. & I mean, be honoured Liz, not much is worthy of my precious blog.
    So lyke, I set my alarm for 9am, thinking okay, I'll get up, and be nice and fresh to go out at h"alf 10! But then my alarm went off in the middle of a rather nice dream of which details are being withheld, and I turned the little bugger off and woke up again at, you guessed it, half 10, only to throw on some clothes, grab Clarence & run up the road to meet Teh Liz at Sedgley bus stop. Then, while on the bus, we got yelled at by some drunk chavs. Fun start to the day!
    So lyke, now we're in town and we pay our anual three visits to Rowfers before we actually buy anything, we walk across the (deserted) Civic and went and had a bit of n0rtyness down with a load of office workers having a fag break. Although it took us about 10 minutes to manage to, Ahem, "Do" our but of n0rtyness, but hell, it was worth it. (And stop being a pervert, pervert. I know what I'm talking about.)
    Then we goes to Subway, and they HAD SOME BREAD. (Halle-fucking-luyah) and we ate. Then we went back to Civic. Then we got bored, so we thought, let us go and get a feast of Thorntons and Dohnuts! & On the way to Thorntons we got harrassed by some Hobo, who said to us: "Put your faith in Jesus! Don't put your faith in Tim Henman!" then chasing us down the street as we tried to make a quick getaway. Then we decided that Thorntons was too expensive (Or that we were too tight) so we went & got 4 quids worth of pick & mix from Woolies. (Probobly actually should have been about 6 quid, judging by the amount we actually ate before we paid for it =P)
    We also saw a lot of someone's family around town. xD
     
    SPANKS PIXEH <3 I just have one thing left to say - WHAT'S THIS THAT I SPY? OH MY, IT'S MARS DELIGHT!
     
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
     
    You're Still On My Speed Dail,
    But There's Nothing Left To Say.
    Except If I Cried For You
    & Wished That You'd Never Gone Away.
    February 07

    foraveryspeciallady__x

     
     
     
    Heyjulie__x
     
    look what they're doing to me
     
    trying to trip me up, trying to wear me down
     
    julie, i swear, it's so hard to to bare
     
    & i'd never make it through without you around.
     
    <3
     
     
     
    January 22

    *UnforgivableSinner*</3

    Mood:
    Choon: "Another Day" - Lene Marlin
     
    Lie To Me ; Say That You Need Me </3
       
     Aww, Mumsie dearest has just bought me a lovely Tuna Mayonnaise sandwhich. How lovleh. I love standing in the kitchen while Mum makes everybody's sandwhiches, because every time we make Tuna ones, our cat just randomly appears from nowhere.. I think the record from the piercing of the tuna can to the appearence of Tazzy is about 6 seconds, where we saw her come tearing across the garden through the middle of some very confused chickens and come smacking straight into the french windows.
       Anyway, other than my partially severed neck, I've had a wonderous and fantabulous weekend =D Friday night, my fellow mini moshers and I reigned terror over Generation (Well, we stared at/spilt water on plenty of people, anyway) And we went, Mosh Mosh Mosh, while screaming at eachother, things like; "Forever, Forever! Let's Make This Last Forever!" "To Never Fall In Love Agaaain.." "SUGAR WE'RE GOIN' DOWN, SWINGIN'!" etc etc. Had an amazing time babes, roll on February 17th!
       & Last night, we all stopped at Simran's, and, just to prove I'm not lying, I have pictures! They're like, that way somewhere! << We had lots of fun, but I vow to anyone who hasn't watched it, do NOT watch Edward Scissor Hands.. It is heartbreakingly traumatizing ='( But we got to eat cake and we had a lovely girly time. Only problem is now I've shouted at so many people because I fell asleep on the cold, hard floor at 7am and woke up at 9 with Beth kneeling on me... But still, Phun Phun Phun!
       So now Imma just sit on MSN for the rest of the day, marvelling in tuna sandwhiches and getting depressed over random things like missing Geno & fag cravings. (But we DON'T get them, do we, Pix?)
     
    I just have one more thing to say, y'all -- "GARDIANS UNITE!"  "..Pardon?"
     
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
     
    ♥ You Were There For Summer Dreamin'
    & You Are A Friend Indeed.
    & I Hope You Find Your Freedom
    Eventually. ♥
    January 04

    x[[I'm]]Someone[[Else]]x

    Mood:
    Choon: "Bright Lights" - Matchbox 20
     
    She Got Outta Town, On A Railway, New York Bound.. Took All Except My Name.
     
     
      Well, hey there. Not done one of my little blogs for a while, so I thought I'd come back and watch you all weep with wonder and admiration while I tell you about my sucky Christmas... What was that? You don't care about my sucky Christmas?... Well sit down, shutup & listen, 'cos I'm gonna tell you anyway.
      Uh, well, Xmas day, was woken at 1pm by an over-excited Mother. Considering she's spent about two months moaning about how much she hates Christmas, she was pretty hyper active as I unwrapped many a pair of socks. Knew instantly she'd been on the coffee. Made mental note to hide expresso machine, as is dangerous. Theeen Grandmother dearest comes around and Sister dearest drops oxygen tank onto my foot as we lug it up the stairs. Then get yelled at for going on MSN because it's "Anti-Social". Then scoff dinner and have to wait three hours for pudding because Grandmother spends an age piling things perfectly onto her folk and then, as soon as she lifts it to her mouth she either starts a new interesting conversation about Pat's new cream cardie, or else it all falls off and she has to start again. Either way, had to take several deep breaths and remind myself not to shout at old people.
       Theeeen, Boxing Day, (Or Xmas at Daddykins's) && RICHARD CAME OVER!!! Was sooo happy! Well, would have been more happy if I hadn't decided I was going to put on my new fluffy pair of pink pyjama's, but can't have everything in life.
       Theeeen, on News Years Eve, Jules bought Angie & Carolynne round! Seems family fudes all over now! Had fabmoolas evening watching Ang get slowly redder in the face every time Dad re-filled her glass, and gladly joined in when she started drowing out James Blunt on the TV with renditions of "YOU'RE BEE-OOT-EE-FU-HULL!"
       
    I love you lot. You're all mental.
     
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
     
     
    ♥ The Ocean Wrapped Around The Sun
    The Smell Of June, The Taste Of Your Tongue;
    Was All I'll Ever Need. ♥
    December 25

    Fairytale Of New York;<3

     
     
     
    I Could Have Been Someone
    Well So Could Anyone
    You Took My Dreams From Me
    When I First Found You.

    I Kept Them With Me, Babe.
    I Put Them With My Own
    Can't Make It All Alone
    I Built My Dreams Around You.

     
     
    Merry Christmas Everyone
    December 22

    ;You.

    Baby;INeedYou.<3
     
    x . { . You're So Beautiful ; You're So Untouchable . } . x

    x . { . & If You Make It Up ; I Could Never Get Enough ; You & Me Together . } . x

    x . { . Is It Red , Is It Green? Am I Stuck Inbetween? . } . x

    x . { . You Are The Hope I Have For Change ; You Are The Only Chance I'll Take . } . x

    x . { . Hang & Swap Clichés All Night . } . x

    x . { . Overcome Thinkin' About ; Makin' Love In The Green Grass Behind The Stadium With You . } . x

    x . { . Hello ; Do You Notice Me? Do You See That I'm Crumblin' Down? . } . x

    x . { . I Don't Know How Many Times We've Walked The Streets
             Talking For Ages, 'Bout The People We're Gonna Be . } . x

    x . { . I Want You To Love Me ; I Want You To Know I'm Just Like You . } . x

    x . { . Sky Fell Down & Pulled Us In ; Stole Away My Oxygen
              & Left Me Standing Breathless There With You . } . x

    x . { . It's So Wrong Not To Be With You ; It's Getting Harder To Stay Away . } . x

    x . { . You Got Me Falling ; Noticing Those Little Things You Do . } . x

    x . { . I'm Starting To Fashion An Idea Inside My Head
             Where I Would Impress You With Every Word I Said . } . x

    x . { . I Never Knew Boys Could Be Beautiful ; But You . } . x

    x . { . Sometimes I Catch Myself Staring Into Space
             Counting Down The Hours 'Til I Get To See Your Face . } . x

    x . { . & Maybe, You're Gonna Be The One That Saves Me . } . x

    x . { . We Were Young, We Were Wrong ; We Were Fine All Along . } . x
     

    Can'tTakeMyEyesOffYou.<3
    December 04

    TellHerI'mNotSorry.

    Mood:
    Choon: "On The Lie" - Goo Goo Dolls
     
    He Said I Looked Like A Hollywood Girl -- I Said Hollywood Can Fall In The Ocean Man, 'Cos It's The Ugliest Place In The Whole Wide World.
     
    Weeeell, first and foremost, Grease is over! We performed, or as good as performed, three days earlier this week, and as soon as the final curtain fell, I burst into tears because I'm really not that badass =D Just can't believe it's over, seems like only yesterday I was pushing everyone out of the way to check what part I'd got! Lots of things when semi-wrong when we were performing. First night (Which I think was our best night) me and Jack had this part where I have three lines, and he has three lines, and Jack panicked and wasn't sure which line was first, so he took a stab in the dark and said all his lines in the wrong order. =D Then, on the second night, the audience must have been scandalised because of the amount of swearing we did - To start, Craig almost knocked over one of the sets onto Jack, who yelled "FUCK!" While trying to prop it back up; Pete forgot to turn his mic off when he left stage and told someone to "Shut the fuck up" and I walked into the bench on stage and shouted "Oh shit!"; Then, on the third and final night, Greg forgot to sing the ending to Born To Hand Jive and we all had to dive onto stage with our arms in the air because the band suddenly stopped.
     
    But, all in all, it's been a fabmoolas 3 months, and I'm definitely gonna miss everyone.
     
    Weeelll, this weekend's been fabmoolas aswell! (Y'know, life really is fabmoolas! FINALLY! =D) Chazza slept at mine on friday, then we woke up at half 10 on Saturday morning, although we were supposed to be meeting the boys at 11, so then there was a mad rush around the house with many flying eyeliners, we managed to be on time, even stopping to buy a chocolate fix on the way up. Bravo to us, Ms. Bailey!
    Met all the lads, Alice & Megan at the bus stop, then had a play on Marc's DS (Horribly easy game, but I still kept shoving it back over to Marc so he'd do it for me) then, when we got to town, me and Chaz managed to lose everyone but Todd, Tim & Marc, then we lost Todd and Tim, so the terrible trio just managed to eat our way through Wolvo, then went home with huge smiles and receiding waist lines.
     
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
     
    Here She Comes, She's A-Walkin', So I Stop & Stare
    She's Got Diamonds In Her Eyes, She's Got Sparkles In Her Hair
    I Mean, I Don't Swing That Way, But If I Was A Guy
    I'd Do Everything In My Power To Make That Godess Mine
     
    x__x
    November 27

    --

    I Miss You ; I Miss Being Overwhelmed By You
    & I Need Rescue ; I Think I'm Fading Away.
    I Keep Thinking That You'll Wake Me Up With A Whisper In My Ear
    I Keep Hoping That You'll Sneak In My Room.
     
    So I Wait ; & I Wait.
    & I Run Old Scenes Through My Tired Head
    Of The Days That We Lay By The School And Said "Forever" ;
    Was That The Best I'll Ever Be?
     
    I Miss You ; I Miss Talking All Night Long With You
    I Need This To Find A Way To Your Home
    Oh, My Love ; Can You Hear Me?
    Have I Been Hoping Loud Enough ; Wishing Hard Enough?
    Can You See Me ; When I'm Asleep All Alone?
     
    So I Wait ; & I Wait
    And I Run Myself In The Same Old Circles
    I Sit ; & I Stare
    & I Run Old Scenes Through My Tired Head
    Of The Days That We Lay By The School And Said "Forever" ;
    Was That The Best I'll Ever Be?
     
    I Can't Keep My Hands From Shakin'
    Stumblin' Through The Wreckage Again
    But You're Gone.
     
    So I Wait ; & I Wait
    And I Run Myself In The Same Old Circles
    I Sit ; & I Stare
    & I Run Old Scenes Through My Tired Head
    Of The Days That We Lay On Our Backs And Said "Forever" ;
    Was That The Best I'll Ever Be?
    Was That The Best I'll Ever Be?
    Was That The Best I'll Ever Be?
     
     
    -- "Best I'll Ever Be", By Sister Hazel.<3x
     
    November 24

    .</3x

    He Told Me I'd Become Numb To It In The End.

    So Hit Me With All You've Got ; I Wont Feel A Thing.

     

     

     

     

    I Hate Everything About You..

     Why.Do.I.Love.You?

     

     

     

     

     

    && Life Sucks, But I'm Just  O v e r l y  E m o
    && It Hurts Too Much To Think Of  L e t t i n g H i m G o.

    </3x

    November 13

    BeautifulSimplicity.<3x

    Mood:
    Choon: "Ticket Outta Loserville" - Son Of Dork
     
    When I Go To Sleep I Pray; Wakin' Up To I Got You Babe.
     
     
    I am under strict orders to write a new blog, so here I am. As you may have realised, due to my complete lack of bloggage, or interesting bloggage, my life is dull and boring, therefore I don't blog because I'm so boring. But at the same time I can give you all the illusion that the reason I don't write blogs is because I'm way too busy out there, doing stuff that is so worthy of bloggage you will all weep with wonder when I don't write about it.
     
    Weeellll Grease today was fun! Dragged myself out of bed at half past 7 and threw myself onto the floor of the Drama studio (right at Mr. Plants feet - I will tell you know; Yum.) and dazzled everyone with my amazing American accent. (I mean, please, YOU try saying "Talking" and "Porky" in an American accent - And worse, TOGETHER!) Then, Me, Bee & Lil ran to Spar to grab some grub, and we came back to find that everyone had diseappeared, then proceeded to run all around the school, sedgley and outside to try and find anyone. And trust me, after you'd been running around for half an hour trying to find an invisible band of 60-Odd people, you'd start believing that they'd been abducted by aliens too.
     
    Postman Pat & The Giant Snowball - Out On DVD Now!
     
    Lol sorry, that's just came on the TV and I knew that you would all like to know.
     
    Lol, I really wanna put up the song Me, Liz, Bee & Sim made up during watching "Grease Lightening" today, but a nagging suspicion is telling me I will spare myself, and them, a total humiliation if I don't.
    But if anyone fancies hearing it, I'm all, erm, mouth.
     
    Oh yeah, I have one more thing to say... DO DO RON RON! DO DO RON RON! =D
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain / Old / Jane .x.
     
    Let Me Be The One You Call
    If You Jump, I'll Break Your Fall
    Lift You Up, And Fly Away With You Into The Night.
    If You Need To Fall Apart
    I Can Mend A Broken Heart
    If You Need To Crash, Then Crash And Burn;
    You'reNotAlone.<3x
    November 03

    .Cham[Pain]High.

    He turned the light off on his way out
    And didn't try and stop the door from slamming.
    Realise, realise.
    So she's sitting in the dark because she's lazy
    And she's in tears because she's over emotional.
    Burning eyes, realise.
     
    The sleaziest apartment in the sleaziest part of town
    Her shortest skirt pulled higher, the best way to be.
    Realise, realise.
    So she's laughing along because she's got no soul
    And his hands on her leg because she's easy.
    Burning eyes, realise.
     
    Her green eyes reflect jealousy and
    Her black hair reflects her heart.
    Realise, realise.
    But look closer and your stained mind will see
    That her eyes are more black than fucking green.
    Burning eyes, realise.
     
    This was the first time he ever saw her without make-up
    And she turned her eyes from his as if afraid.
    Realise, realise.
    Afraid that he'll see her for what she really is.
    But sadly enough, she doesn't even know herself..

    .burningeyes;realise.
    October 24

    WeLive&WeDieWithNoReasonWhy.

    Mood:
    Choon: "Could It Be Any Harder?" - The Calling
     
    Now I Wish That I Could Turn Back The Years..
     
    So yeah. You've all buggered off on the cruise to leave me alone with my stomach muscles. GUH TO YOU. If nobody brings me back a camel stuffed with poo, there will be some SERIOUS words when you get back.
    With tans and pictures and things to talk about.
    CURSE YOU, CURSE YOU!!!
     
    Weeeell.. I'm going back to Sunny Ol' Brean on wednesday. And dya know something? I'm really excited about it.. Heh, I must be going soft. Can't wait to get back to Ceddar Gorge and sit for half an hour in the pouring rain while some upperclass snob wearing pearls can talk about "The Birds Nesting In The Big Crack", get glared and tutted at for daring to snigger, and being forced to eat a load of green cheese and damn well like it.
    But, on the plus side, Mum's not going, so there'll be a very small number of arguments.
     
    Ooh, and another thing - I'm breaking out. Fucking great timing. *Curls up into a ball and dies*.
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
     
    He Said, Give An Old Man A Twirl
    Then He Said, You Belong In
    Hollywood, Girl.
    October 16

    __I Don't Know How I'll Feel. xo._

     
    I Remember
    The Atmosphere
    The Way You Breathed Out
    And I Breathed You In.
     
    Sweet Words
    Roll From Your Tongue
    The Way You Stood Before Me
    And I Fell Into Your Eyes.
     
    I Forgot To Say
    I'll Miss You Tonight
    Mere Hours And I'll See You Again But..
    I'll Miss You Tonight.
     
    Wordless Conversations
    And Faces With No Names
    I'm Trying To Tell You That I Love You
    By Pushing You Away
     
    I Can't Let Myself Think
    Of The Way We Could Be
    When You Said That I Was Beautiful,
    Did You Mean It?
     
    I Forgot To Do My Thinking
    Now Novembers On It's Way.
    So I'll Stay In My Winter, Singin' About
    The Cold October I Loved You For A Day.
    October 13

    Eh-Elle, It's Your Birthday! Happy Birrhday Eh-Elle! xD

    Mood:
    Choon: "Where To Begin" - Bowling For Soup
     
    Break Away, Break Away From Me.. No, Forget That.. Just Sit Here, And Look At Me..
     
       Heh, happy birthday to me I guess! Thankyou to all my Smexi's who kept me smiling, entertained and downright loved today. Got loads of fantabulouse presents and I feel all warm and smushy =) Thanks y'all. And sorry for the "Omfgbirthdayssuckremindmetoneverhaveanotheroneinmylife" outbursts. Oh, and also sorry to Marc because I stared at him all the way through R.E. Hun, one day you'll realise I was just trying to find words to describe how cute you are =)
       Heh, well R.E rocked because our teacher wasn't here (For the second week running - Now starting to wonder whether being around Tim really does break and destroy the over 30's. Mrs Bradley is still brandishing a stick, screaming every time someone makes a sudden movement in the corner of our Year Six classroom.) James was talking to Jack and the supply teacher told him to move, and when he picked up his chair to move it he just let out the stupidest giggle I have ever heard, and you know those funny moments where there's silence for a second while everybody takes it in, and then the whole room just explodes? Well, yeah xD
       In English me and Liz were meant to be getting along quietly with our presentations, but ended up coming in with a bang (And a ripple) By blowing on eachother's arms until it made certain noises. Then, just to annoy everyone, I ran round the classroom stealing pencil cases, until deciding "THERE'S NO TIME!!", dumping Aimee's bag in the bin and running off with it. My god, I am funny. xD
       Then got to Dad's house to find that a huge Tellytubby (Val if you wanna be technical about it)  had put up a load of balloons and "Happy Birthday" signs, and came jumping over to be, to break my ribs and give me a prezzie =D Aw, bless her! She's so Tubby-like about everything!
    So yeah... I've had a lovley birthday =)
     
    Oooh yeah, and I'm just about to put some smexi pictures from my party last Saturday up, so prepare yourself for the Girl-Gang Gothness ;)
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain / Old / Jane .x.
     
    So Many Nights, Legs Tangled Tight
    Wrap Me Up In A Dream With You
    Close Off These Eyes, Try Not To Cry
    All That I've Got To Pull Me Through
    Is Memories Of You.
     
    .iloveyou.
    October 06

    So.x.Hard.x.To.x.Stay.x.So.x.Hard.x.To.x.Leave

    Mood:
    Choon: "Brand New Day" - Forty Foot Echo
     
    We Said We'd Take A Little Time, For Both Of Us To See, And Wonder What It'd Be Like To Carry On..
     
     
       Aww man.. I feel really weird today.. Like, have you ever had the feeling where something is just part of existance? Like, it doesn't really have to mean a lot to you, but it's just there and it's in your life but you don't really appreciate it til it's gone? Mikey* and Kelly* (Changed names because I don't want to cause anything by this blog..) were part of existance. Just knowing they were still strong and still so in love even when they were so young was nice to me. Looking at their screen names on MSN, declaring love to eachother, seeing them around school, was so nice. And now they're over. And when I think about that, I seriously start to worry about my own love life. When there's no hope for them, where's the hope for the rest of us? 
       And the little man with his red suit. I was literally stunned when someone told me he had died during the holiday's. I remember being bored in lessons and looking out of the window, and there he'd be, with his little litter picker, making the school look all nice only for us awful kids to come outside at break and mess it up and then, in the afternoon, there he'd be again.
    I never spoke to him, I didn't even know him, but him not being there means a lot to me.
    So I guess that just shows even a stranger can touch a persons life.
     
    Flutter By, Butterfly! }i{
    .x. Plain/Old/Jane .x.
     
    Then Our Luck Runs Out Again
    We Roll Back Down To Solid Ground
    I Wouldn't Say I'm Mad About The Rain
    'Cos We'll Get Through It Anyway.. 
     
    October 04

    .x. He/Called/Me/Heartbreaker .x.

    x_I made her jump through hoops and she sighed_x
    x_Oh honey, I'm just afraid to live_x
    x_Empathy was never my cause_x
    x_And for that they judge me_x
    x_She tore my best dress and he pulled at my curls_x
     
     
    x_Another cigarette and_x
    x_He calls her easy_x
    x_The world shaker_x
    x_The heart breaker_x
    x_October, on park benches_x
    x_November, his jacket's ripped_x
    x_And by December he doesn't know who he is anymore_x
     
     
    x_Three X's on his Christmas card_x
    x_Sealed the envelope with a lipstick mark_x
    x_Just like the one on his best friends collar_x
    x_The pale pink which matched your cheeks_x
    x_The black outline matched your heart_x
     
     
    x_We hide in eachothers eyes_x
    x_Because the world moves too fast_x
    x_And nothing ever lasts_x
    x_And you held on to me while I try to run away_x
    x_You can kick you can scream but it's not gonna make me stay_x
     
     
     
     
    No one's ever seen you like I have.
    I've seen the Fire in your eyes
    I've seen the Blood on your pillow.
    And worst of all I've seen you Cry.
    But never for what you did.
    No.
    All for that I did.
    The slightest thing.
    You play tragic. But it makes no difference.
    It's all my fault.
    It a l w a y s was.